Always and Forever

safe and sound

2012-01-21T03:17:00.002+08:00

how can a heart ache if he's not what you need,
that is a very good question,indeed.
one thing for sure,life is never fair,
cheer up,there're lots more out there.

i once knew a girl,
i really loved her so.
she fell for my friend,
and i had to let her go.

the next girl i fell for,
she was really something.
but that was what i thought,
turned out to be nothing.

when all hope seemed lost,
you showed me the way.
i'm lost for words now,
i don't know what to say.

so don't be sad,
don't feel down,
you'll be alright,
safe and sound.

if you need ever need,
to talk to somebody.
i'll be here,
you can count on me.

miss composure

2012-01-20T04:34:00.001+08:00

your eyes tonight,they shine so bright,
with the stars above,such a lovely sight.
you asked for a poem,here it goes,
it's more like a rhyme,but nobody knows.

who cares if it's poem or a rhyme,
you'll still have a jolly good time.
i hope you'll smile at the end of this,
don't leave your chair,not even to piss.

once upon a time,i saw this dame,
in my dreams,i knew her name.
she was smiling,sounds kinda lame,
but not every story is the same.

wherever i looked,
i searched for her smile.
she was in front if me,
all this while.

i was so blind,
not to see.
a plain beauty,
in kde.

i like to save the best for last,
ending the story would be too fast.
i'll write you more,
this isn't that hardcore

more to come,don't worry.
we're not in a hurry...are we?

hear your thoughts

2012-01-13T18:36:00.000+08:00

competition is cruel.
you gain victory at someone's loss. you find happiness out of someone's sadness.

and in the end what do you get?
trophy? fame? fortune?
or maybe it was just a need to hide your insecurities.

what's the point of proving you're the best when nobody's perfect, nobody's the best.

humans are always wanting to prove themselves better than others.
perhaps only because they feel, and fear that they are not good enough, most of the times, for themselves.
because no one else has to right judge you other than yourself.

i may be a loser, i may be kiasu. i may be afraid of losing. fine. say whatever you want.
but let me put in this way.
if i were to prove myself, what do i get if i fail? (bigger possibility)
probably hatred, resentment, more insecurities, frustration, desperation
but if i dont win anything, i'd still be happy. i'd still have my friends and family. i'd still be loved.
the worst is......nothing more. because i already have everything i have, which is good enough for me.
what more could i need? what more could i ask for?

i mean yeah if you succeed you'd get fame and fortune and everyone's respect, but who says being the in 99% of the human population who are normal, average and simple isn't something good as well?

the world we live in nowadays gives people the impression that if we dont achieve something, we're nothing.
but then again, who says having achievements is something and having none is nothing?
you can also have many achievements and well, nothing else.
unless your achievement is achieving the balance in life but that's another topic which i shall further elaborate in another post.

humans come in different shapes and sizes, including their views.
i understand those of you who have been living your whole life trying to be number 1, i respect your determination, i respect your hardwork, i respect your aim and mission, i know its a dark winding pathway full of obstacles and sacrifices, but always remember not to lose yourself, because every sacrifice you make comes with a price.

sometimes a price where people lose respect and faith in you, for making distasteful sacrifices to get to where you want to be. and if you think it is all worth it in the end of the day, that's when you lose yourself.

well whatever and however, at the end of the day, i live by my own motto.

i dont have to prove myself to anyone else.

little taste of heaven.

2011-12-14T10:39:00.000+08:00

when i'm with you.

untouchable like a distand diamond sky

i'm reaching out and i just can't tell you why

i'm caught up in you, i'm caught up in you

untouchable burning brighter than the sun

and when you're close i feel like coming undone

in the middle of the night when i'm in this dream

it's like a million little stars spelling out your name

you gotta come on, come on

say that we'll be together

come on, come on

little taste of heaven

it's half full and i won't wait here all day

i know you're saying that you'll be here anyway

but you're untouchable burning brighter than the sun

now that you're close i feel like coming undone

in the middle of the night waking from this dream

i wanna feel you by my side standing next to me

you gotta come on, come on

say that we'll be together

come on, come on

little taste of heaven.

every time i hear his name

2011-12-02T21:29:00.001+08:00

Finally got over that song of ours; stopped chasin' little red sports cars,
To check the license plates and I quit drivin' by your place.
Back makin' the rounds at our old haunts: Honky Tonks, restaurants.
And seein' some of our old friends: it feels good to dance again.
And I can finally smell your perfume and not look around the room for you.
And I can walk right by your picture in a frame and not feel a thing.

But when I hear your name,
I feel rain fallin' right out of the blue sky.
And it's the fifth of May, and I'm right there starin' in your eyes.
And nothin's changed, and we're still same.
And I get lost in the innocence of a first kiss,
And I'm hangin' on to every word rollin' off of your lips:
And that's all it takes, and I'm in that place,
Every time I hear your name.

I stop thinkin' 'bout the words I left unsaid.
Every time I hear your name.
I stop tryin' the change the things I can't change.
Every time I hear your name.
In my heart I know you're gone, but in my head,
I feel rain fallin' right out of the blue sky.

heartbreak welfare

2011-11-27T23:45:00.003+08:00

sometimes i wonder, do heartbreaks happen in purpose to make us a stronger person?

heartbreak is part and parcel of life. we need to make mistakes in order to learn from them. and since everything has its first, there's no one to blame. but in this kind of case, remember, ONCE is enough!

if there's a 2nd time, means we're dumb enough and this time we only have ourselves to blame.

or maybe we're just living in denial, we wanna believe that fairytales have happy endings. well sadly, only happens in fairytales, not real life.

TIME FOR REALITY CHECK :D

somehow i feel glad that i was heartbroken for a few times(yes yes i am naive) because i was never really WITH them. its just i felt sad that things didnt work out, no matter how much i wished they would. eventho the heartbreak gets worse each time, it also takes us less time to get over it. so i get stronger and braver. i was never in love with anyone, i just loved the idea of it. but at that moment, i could not differentiate.

the words i love you is often overused, but rarely sincere. i dont say it often, knowing that it means alot and cant be said simply. because these words are sacred. special.

the last person i remember saying it to(to a guy excluding friends) is whatshisname. not that i loved him, but we were together, so i felt like i had to. so dont do things just because you feel like you have to. you'd end up hurting and losing yourself.

things happen for a reason. i cant say they're all good, but they sometimes remind you of why you should never let yourself be in the risky position to go through another heartbreak ever again. because it hurts, real bad.

but then again, life's a risk. life's unplanned. so whatever it is, know that you're strong enough to stand back up on your feet. or friends and family to pull you up, but only if you allow them to.

i'd say go for it, because the worst is just a NO. which really is the worst feeling ever, trust me! but somehow we'll get used to it.

my advice is, GO FOR IT! but always know that at the end of the day, you'll be able to get back up on your feet, let go and move on. of course with a little bit of holding on at first since it takes time.

mistakes lead to regrets. which can only be forgotten with forgiveness. and the only person we need to forgive is ourselves.

so what if things dont work out? life's too short to sit and sulk.

at the end of the day, you leave this world with only memories :)

so make sure sweet > bitter

cheers! :)

time to settle down

2011-10-06T09:06:00.000+08:00

but only if there is something/someone worth settling for

:)

too long to post in fb

2011-09-06T22:08:00.004+08:00

wow its really been a while! i smell rust

this is what i conclude out of my 3 weeks holiday(yeah yeah, another memorable one)

the minute you start wanting him is the minute he stops wanting you. then when you finally stop wanting him, guess what? he wants you back. DOUCHE. problem is(other than guys being themselves), you dont know when or how to stop. so he never wants you back.

LOL

true or false? you decide.

oh wells, why must things like these happen during holidays?

probably i was just too free lol

like he/she/whoever said, it's better(for me at least) to have 'oh wells' than what ifs' in life.

we must first learn how to let go before falling. so it wouldn't hurt as much.

it was nice while it lasted :)

have you ever seen the rain, coming down on a sunny day?

the feeling's indescribable. i cant put it in words.

i live in the present, not in the past nor future.

i live for myself, not for anyone else.

its gonna be love

2011-07-10T00:34:00.002+08:00

its gonna be real

its gonna change everything i feel

how many times have i told myself that?

but yet never once did it happen

i guess life happens when you're busy making other plans

miracles happen when you least expect them

so i shall stop expecting :)

but prince charming, how long more must i wait?

i have a feeling that i'm beginning to lose hope and faith in you

Prologue of love

2011-06-24T17:03:00.002+08:00

my love inspiration :)

hold on and listen to every word very carefully.

'Speak now or forever hold your peace,' the words said by preachers at the end of wedding ceremonies all over the world, right before the vows. It's a last chance for protest, a moment that makes everyone's heart race, and a moment I've always been strangely fascinated by. So many fantasize about bursting into a church, saying what they'd kept inside for years like in the movies. In real life, it rarely happens.

Real life is a funny thing, you know. In real life, saying the right thing at the right moment is beyond crucial. So crucial, in fact, that most of us start to hesitate, for fear of saying the wrong thing at the wrong time. But lately what I've begun to fear more than that is letting the moment pass without saying anything.

I think most of us fear reaching the end of our life, and looking back regretting the moments we didn't speak up. When we didn't saying 'I love you.' When we should've said 'I'm sorry.' We didn't stand up for ourselves or someone who needed help.

These songs are made up of words I didn't say when the moment was right in front of me. These songs are open letters. Each is written with a specific person in mind, telling them what i meant to tell them in person. To the beautiful boy whose heart I broke in December. To my first love who I never thought would be my first heartbreak. To my band. To a mean man I used to be afraid of. To someone who made my world very dark for a while. To a girl who stole something of mine. To someone I forgive for what he said in front of the whole world.

Words can break someone into a million pieces, but they can also put them back together. I hope you use yours for good, because the only words you'll regret more than the ones left unsaid are the ones you use to intentionally hurt someone.

What you say might be too much for some people. Maybe it will come out all wrong and you'll stutter and you'll walk around embarrassed, wincing as you play it all back in your head. But I think the words you stop yourself from saying are the ones that will haunt you the longest.

So say it to them. Or say it to yourself in the mirror. Say it in a letter you'll never send or in a book millions might read someday. I think you deserve to look back on your life without a chorus of resounding voices saying 'I could've, but it's too late now.'

There is a time for silence. There is a time waiting your turn. But if you know how you feel, and you so clearly know what you need to say, you'll know it.

I don't think you should wait. I think you should speak now.

P/S: To all the boys who inspired this album, you should've known. ;)

love,

Taylor

tell me your heart went numb for once at least, thinking of the things you should've said to that special someone :)

it's never too late.

better late than never :)

inspiration

2011-06-24T16:27:00.003+08:00

its been more than a month that i last updated

some people say blogging is about what you do everyday, your daily life

others say its about expressing your feelings, telling people what you think

after all its YOUR blog and it's not wrong being all about YOU YOU and YOU

its up to them to read its not like you're pointing a gun at their head

anywayyy my point is it's been a while since i blogged and i really dont know why either

perhaps i dont really want people to know what i've been thinking/feeling so yeah

today i wanna talk about my inspiration. i hope someday i can be someone's inspiration too. but for now, mine are angelina jolie and taylor swift(celebrities)

non celebrities are my parents, grandparents, brother and sometimes my maid LOL but it's personal so i shall not talk about em

angelina jolie. shes just awesome. despite the fact that brad pitt and jennifer anniston separated cuz of her(many ppl hate her for that but i dont see the point), but hey! love is never wrong. at least they're living the life now.

she has many kids, a career. a loving caring(and lets not forget drop dead gorgeous) husband, FAMILY, AND she serves humanity!!! have you seen how much humanitarian work she has done for mankind?!

at the same time she has to juggle her family and career.

and she's doing it well.

of course she has had her own share of past too, but let's face it, WHO DOESN'T?

what matters is things that she's doing right NOW.

and i really respect her for that.

SHE'S ONLY 36 BTW!

omg i just googled for her age and found out that she kissed her brother before, ON THE LIPS! there are pictures everywhere. i seriously hope its not a french kiss ewww....that is just so SICK!

okayyy....she might also be a BI??!!! great..i need to reconsider this...

hahahaha jokes. she'll always be an inspiration to me no matter what! unless she kills someone LOL

anyway back to the story.

taylor swift, shes more like my inspiration for love, love inspiration.

because she really knows what shes feeling, writing AND singing lol.

although she may seem like a player to us, but who cares?

she should be given credits for being brave enough to show everyone who she really is.

and guess what? people(mostly girls) still love her!!!

tho i must admit that some of her songs really sound alike but whatever im not talking about her career here!

just saying how she really has the power to inspire people. people like me who keep looking for true love, who will never give up. because she believes that she's one of em too, one of us.

there are times when i feel like giving up, let love look for me instead. then i realised it has to work both ways

i just recently bought her album SPEAK NOW and this is what she has to say(which inspired me to write this post lol)

NEXT POST

urban dictionary

2011-05-20T12:04:00.007+08:00

is the BOMB man!!! look at what i've found!

1.	Sabrina
	a special crazy girl who is a brown haired fire ball who can be shy at times and is drop dead beautiful she is fun and can be a flirt but guys stare but cant get the guts to talk to her she loves music she has big brown eyes that sparkle when she talkes she has a odd but hot clothing style she is very unique and amazingly talented she dreams of being better which is hard to imagine for her she is loyal and truly a fun person she has unique food taste and likes all sorts of music she has a ghetto ass and big boobs she has a tall nice shape and wavy/curly hair. sabrina has ghetto ass curly hair fun unique

2.	Sabrina
	Someone who is loving, smart, beautiful, and makes the life of a Vincent complete.

4.	Sabrina
	One of the nicest people you will meet. She has your back all the time, starts trends, and can pull off emo one day and preppy the next. Everyone smiles when they hear her name. Guys swarm around her, not just to be boyfriends, but friends too. Just to know her is a benefit to your entire life. Keeps secrets when you can't even tell your parents your problems. Girl you wanna sit by and hold her hand. She will make you feel guilty out of your mind if you hurt her just by ignoring you. Synonyms: Nice, kind, funny, sweet, trustworthy, cute, hot, benefit to your whole life

Sabrina

A very smart girl, short, funny, and highly intelligent. Most likely the smartest girl in the room. She's very shy and quiet until you get to know her. Their is absolutely no way that you can't love her. She'll help you study and make sure the best happens for you if she likes you.
Usually nicknamed Brina or Sabre.

sorry people I JUST HAD TO!!!! HAHHAHAH

only thing that wasn't true is that sabrina's tall. FINE LA OKAY I KNOW!

Lab Rat

A person who's used for experimental reasons. Similar to the phrase "Guinea pig".

" I'm not good at braiding hair, can I practice on you?"
"No, I'm not going to be your lab rat!"

now i really feel like getting a guinea pig. THEY'RE SO CUTE!!!! LIKE ME MUAHAHHA

tell me you just fell in love with a PIG!!!! hahaha who thought you'd ever say that in your life hahahha

belated birthday present, ANYONE????!!! :DDDD

Happy Birthday

2011-05-18T14:43:00.000+08:00

TO MYSELF!!!! :DDD

btw A TEEN = EIGHTEEN

i cant believe nobody got it!!!

its sooooo cool hahahhaha

LOVE U ALL

party was awesomeeeeee :)

AI'10 TOP 4

2011-05-09T18:27:00.000+08:00

ARE ALL MY FAVOURITES!

so finally jacob is out :DDD

top 4 are james, scotty, haley and lauren.

well hopefully top 3 would be james scotty and haley.

i really wouldnt mind who gets the title because they're all SO DAMN GOOD!

different genre so yeahh. heavy metal, country and jazz.

not that im a big fan of heavy metal but james is GOOD in what he's doing :)

though i'd prefer country and jazzzzzz ;)

been in love with scotty and haley's voice since day 1. BIG FAN HERE :D

but like the judges' said, IT'S ANYONE'S GAME!

btw can JLo really sing? why are her songs all so......clubby? hahaha

but shes GORGEOUS i gotta admit. and steven tyler is just........sexyyyy (for his age LOL)

dont want this season to be over :(

am currently addicted to landslide by fleetwood mac, i totally feel the song!

just took a passport size photo last weekend, SO UGLY T_T

the only nice photo is my IC photo lol

ITS THE BEST IVE SEEN SO FAR ;)

a place called nowhere

2011-05-04T22:39:00.003+08:00

so i found the umbrella! yay!

its not mine but i loveeee it so much, but it still cant be mine, cuz its NOT.

lol last fri i accompanied my friend calvin to defer his NS at zetro building wangsa maju and left my neighbour's umbrella there

(only realised that on sunday)

how bad can my memory get, really?

first i left my books at examination hall AFTER the exams over, great.

then rmbr my moral assignment a WEEK AFTER dateline.

then this umbrella.

i was quite convinced i left it there. well initially i didnt even rmbr where/when i lost it!

so i went back on monday around 4pm, CLOSED by 3pm. FINE. guard said open 8 till 5.

went back on tuesday, 5pm after class. guard said only open till 430pm. wah i really wanted to shoot him. heavy rain sumore

TODAY HOLY WEDNESDAY MORNING I WENT BACK AND YAY!!!!

weirdest thing is i DREAMT about it right before i woke up seriously. in my dreams i was at the EXACT place asking for it and they returned it to me!

i've been also having this feeling that i'll find it back somehow. i dunno its just sixth sense but really spooky i know. like DEJAVU!

there was once i lost my phone in national library and someone returned it to the receptionist and i got it back!

or perhaps its just pure luck! but im so grateful cuz i was worried esp this umbrella its not nice to lose something that belongs to someone else!

but yeah the whole thing just feels like a dream. spooky!

i read this novel A PLACE CALLED HERE about where missing things go. its so....real.

ANYWAYS IM STILL VERY HAPPY AND GRATEFUL :D

now hopefully im able to find my LAN books back.

cheers! ;)

first of may

2011-05-01T20:01:00.000+08:00

when i was small, and christmas trees were tall
we used to love, while others used to play
don't ask me why, but time has passed us by
someone else moved in from far away

now we are tall, and christmas trees are small
and you dont ask the time of day
but you and i, our love will never die
but guess we'll cry come first of may

:)

happy may people!

really hope this month turns out to be a great one ;)

jazzy soul

2011-05-01T01:33:00.002+08:00

me love!

and country! just any slow nice touching songs!

the ones you listen to and can relate to yourself. the ones that tell stories :D

someone PLEASEEE get me adele norah jones lady antebellum taylor swift carrie underwood avril lavigne album for my 18th birthday!!!! :D

i know i can dl from the internet and all to save $ but having the albums makes me feel happy!

smth that i can hold and you know, play whenever i feel like it :)

i just love to collect great music albums :D

happy may everyone!

me turning 18 this 18 ;)

DONT FORGET! :DDD

been trying to think of how to celebrate hmmm...any ideas?

till then! :)

what's my name?

2011-04-28T17:57:00.003+08:00

few fridays ago, my mum took me to jabatan pendaftaran or whatever at the maju junction to add my name SABRINA into my ic

it was kinda hard to convince her(took me a while) but she finally agreed!

because we had a bet if she calls sabrina in a day then she has do it for me.

5 minutes later, SABRINAAAAAAAAAAAA!

hahahahha gotcha!

they used to call me LIN(all my relatives call my chinese name) but not after i started using sabrina

its not my official name so i kinda wanna make it official.

like a marriage, you can live together and have babies and NOT be married right?

you're SUPPOSED to but its your choice. so yeahhh

many ppl wanna make it official so they get married!

just like my name i wanna make it official. i just like it that way. cuz i love my name ^^

and i wouldnt want ppl to find my name sze lin difficult to pronounce. but most of em do. used to be TZE lin. well thats another long story lol. now i think i like my old chinese name more. hey i was 9! my mind was still immature. omg someone pls shoot me.

anywayssssss, so i went there, and that lady said "oh you've gotta go baptise first and show us the letter from church to prove it then we'll send it to the court and wait for their approval"

WHAAAAAAT THE TUUUUUUUUUUT

dude its a personal thing okay. its MY NAME!!!!!! and i gotta involve like what a priest/pastor a judge just to ADD MY NAME SABRINA IN MY IC?????!!!

you gotta be kidding me.

plus im not a christian so why must i convert just for my name omg.

if i do im probably like the first girl who converts just to officially add her name. the STAR front page man. hahahhahha

AND I HAVE TO WAIT FOR AN UNKNOWN LAME JUDGE TO APPROVE MY NAME?!!!! ARE YOU FREAKING SERIOUS???

like who are you to decide whether to add my name anot lol

ppl in other countries change/add their names ALL THE TIME!!!

do you watch CSI? you'd get my point. all criminals have different names!!! hahahha

i dont get this country!! NO HUMAN RIGHTS!!!!

hello not all chinese with a nice english name infront their surname are christians

therefore not all chinese who wanna add a nice english name infront their surname are converting zzzzz

omg these shallow ppl are so annoying.

no offense to any religion but since when an individual's name has got anything to do with religions?

this world has definitely gone mad.

i hope you get my point. im not against any religion. just all these stupid rules in this country :(

who do mankind care so much about all these rules which have no impact on the world. why do they follow it blindly.

why dont they serve humanity instead and make an impact on other ppl's lives, ppl who need help.

at the end of the day, knowing that you've made a huge impact on many lives, you'd leave the world peacefully. and thats all that matters :)

no one lives forever, but the memory of someone great will :)

P/S: i renewed my birth cert too and just found out that my whole family has no religion(tidak berkenan) hahaha well we really dont! but i aint an atheist. just no religion.

P/P/S: the only chance that i get to add my name without any rules/regulation is when i get married. preferably to a white. LOL jokes!

his quirkiness i'll miss :'(

2011-04-15T19:22:00.001+08:00

CANT BELIEVE PAUL IS ELIMINATEDDDDDDD!!!!!!

this is so devastating!!!!!

i was already shocked enough to know that PIA was out last week when my mum called to inform me cuz i was in pd last friday

WATCHING THE SHOW YOURSELF SEEING YOUR FAVOURITES LEAVING IS SO MUCH WORSE!!!!!!

i mean i feel stefano too he's been in the bottom 2 for god knows how many times(okay maybe only twice) and contestants with amazing voice whom he thinks are better than him leaving instead of him

i can tell from his face that he's damn surprised as well but yeah, he's a nice guy though his voice doesn't appeal much to me

and i hope jacob's out instead of him too LOL but american idol 2011? not possible.

so thia, pia and paul are out :(

my only hopes left are scotty(i swear i feel like marrying him whenever he sings!!!) james(hes just SO GOOD in heavy metal songs) haley(my favourite girl! her voice is sexy!) and lauren(love her country styleeee and versatility)

goodbye paul mcdonald! T_T

what a cute name you have. i thought it was a joke or nickname of yours till i found out it was ur real name LOL.

goodbye thia megia and pia(their names rhyme), keep singing for us who love you! :)

American Idol Season 10 Review

2011-03-27T22:12:00.001+08:00

THIS SEASON IS BY FAR MY FAVOURITEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!

so damn nice la ive been watching EVERY episode since they started auditioning.

these ppl are so GOOD!!!

some are even better than past idols LOL

ITS TRUE LA!!!

anyways i realised i've never talked about AI'10 here before so HERE I AM!

i am SO IN LOVE with some of them since the beginning seriously

SO HERE ARE MY FAVOURITES!!!!! (too many good ones this year so i have many favs!)

1. Scotty Mccreery

i fell in love with this cutie AND his voice the day he went for audition!!! he's a country singer and his deep voice is to die for!!!!!!! im definitely his number 1 fan since day 1!!! i think most typical american teenage girls are ALL OVER HIM just because hes cute duhh(i love his voice too okay)!!!! you'll get what i mean if you've been watching american idol this season. the cheers he gets whenever his name is mentioned! OH MY! he can so be the male version of CARRIE UNDERWOOD!!! i really appreciate country music fyi :D one thing, he really should show us more vocal range though! LOVE U SCOTTY :D damn hes 17, younger than me but wtv! :P

2. Thia Megia

SHE'S ONLY 15 THIS YEAR!!!!!! wth wth wth. her voice is JUST SO GOOD for her age, EVEN FOR ANYONE'S AGE!!! trust me she's sososo good you'd go thinking how old is she again? hahaha she reminds me of charice probably because shes from philipines too and omg shes just SO SWEET!!! whenever she smiles a part of me just melts inside. her voice is just unbelievable. i've been supporting her since day 1 as well! GO THIA!!! ASIAN FTW :D

3. Haley Reinhart

HER VOICE IS GOOD AND DISTINCT!!!! i dunno why was she even in the bottom 3 for 2 weeks!!! SHE CAN BE TOP 3 OKAY! hahahaha i supported her since hollywood week, her amazing voice caught my attention! dont rmbr seeing her in audition but yeah, she's just damn good and unique! so love her rough voice and wide vocal range. SO SO GOOD! like alicia keys ;)

4. James Durbin

i only noticed this punk dude since hollywood week. well he was quite a bad ass back then and i didnt fancy him much, UNTIL I HEARD HIS VOICE OMG! he seriously look AND sound like adam lambert seriously!!!!! they both rock the high voice so damn good! if he wins this year it'll prove that adam lambert lost to ughh kris allen just because hes gay! well its indirectly proven anyways so yeah. NO WORRIES THO our hottie here isn't gay HE'S ALREADY A DADDY :D GO JAMES! we know you're as good as adam but also unique in your own way! ;) prove those losers wrong!

they already met!!! hahaha even took a pic together! adam i hope you aint hitting on james cuz hes married! hahaha jokes you both are AWESOMEEEEE

5. Paul Mcdonald

there's a reason why his name is MCDONALD!!!!! HE'S REALLY LIKE HIM HAHAHAHA. omg this dude, he is SO ADORABLE, SO GEEKY, SO DIFFERENT!!! you just gotta hear him sing and see the way he moves around when he sings, SO CUTE! im sure hes gonna make it. I WANT HIM TOO! he has this rough distinct voice like david cook and i'd always fall for that! its like my week point okay hahaha. ROCK ON PAUL!

6. Lauren Alaina

she's ONLY 16!!!!!! whats with all these young but amazing contestants!!! SO JEALOUS!!! hahahha her voice is just SO POWERFUL I SWEAR!!!!! so nice to hear and i love that she smiles all the time! super cuteeee. her voice always makes me wanna dance and go huga huga :D GO LAUREN!!!

7. Pia Toscano
shes like celine dion + whitney + mariah and all the divas! i love her voice since the day she sang ALL BY MYSELF omg goosebumps!!! her vocals is just CRAZYYYYYY!!! she'd sell albums but american idol, still not so sure! cuz it aint all about your voice but also your vide, personality, confidence and connection with audience. havent seen her dancing around much to entertain but yeah looking forward to that! im sure she'll do better. we'll see ;)

THEY'RE ALL JUST SO GORGEOUSS!!!

i think i probably love more than half of AI'10 top 10.

damn i shouldve done a post of the ones i dont like instead, much shorter and faster HAHAHAHA.

i mean the others are also good but just not my cup of tea :) BUT STILL GOOD! :D

feel free to express your opinion :)

SPM results 2010

2011-03-23T02:04:00.001+08:00

ALL THE BEST YO PPL/MAN/DUDES/JOES/APPUS/MACHAS/GIRLS/GUYS!

love you all no matter what!

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE MAKE IT A HAPPY DAYYYYY <3

what's done is done, so there's no point worrying

THOUGH ITS SUPER TOUGH NOT TO! but yeahhhh

8 more hours to go.

PLEASE IM BEGGING U DONT TEXT ME TO ASK ME ABT MY RESULTS!

if you DO and i never reply you, you know why.

OH AND ALL THE BEST TO MY GIRLS YO!!!!

PBSM GIRLS MARCHING SQUAD 2011

YOU CAN SO DO THIS K!

IT'S TIME TO SHINE! :)

i swear this year's competition gonna be SO CROWDED cuz of the batch'93 all coming back to get results and watch!

CAN'T WAIT!!!!

tweety bird

2011-03-22T00:56:00.002+08:00

i remember how my friends ~~used~~ LOVED to call me tweety bird cuz they think i look like her!

wait tweety bird was a SHE right?

in case you've been living under a rock and wondering what on earth tweety bird is,

SHES SO CUTEEEEEEE! and there was this cat who just couldn't stop chasing her cuz he wants to eat her. SO BAD!

god i miss all our childhood cartoon man seriously.

superman, ultraman, batman, spiderman, sailormoon, power rangers, pokemon, dragon ball, digimon, tellytubbies, sesame street, BARNEY! i loved singing along with barney!!!

i love you, you love me, we are happy family, lalalala (then i mumbled through the song)

AWWW I SWEAR IM GONNA DL(or ask someone else to since i dunno how to) ALL THESE CARTOONS AND WE'RE GONNA SIT ON THE COUCH AND WATCH EM ALL DURING WEEKENDS MAN!

anyway all these are so not the point of my post

point is,

I'VE GOT A TWITTER ACCOUNT! like finally! hahaha

cuz of all the peer pressure yo everyone around me has it! lolol

jon, who just gotten one too, quoted: "the only way to shut everybody up" HAHAHAH SO FARNY!

i swear im like spending most of my time on social networking now blog fb and now twitter!!!

THIS SUCKS OKAY!

what happened to new year's resolution!!!!! T_T

anyway FOLLOW ME @ sabbyhoong

hahahaha cute name i know ;)

see ya all yo!

word of the day - APPU
meaning - joe, dude, macha

LOL

had a bad haircut day today(AGAIN AFTER 5 MONTHS KEEPING MY HAIR LONG T_T)

lets not mention

OH OH I WANT SOME MORE

2011-03-20T19:30:00.001+08:00

been to port dickson(same area) for 2 weekends straight weh!!!!

(gonna elaborate more with pictures in the next post I HOPE hehe ppl tend to be more interested looking at pictures with words rather than JUST words like so boring kan)

both trips were once in a lifetime experienceeeeeeeeee i cant believe its over but yeahhh

im glad i went :)

instead of errr some malaysian studies test and accounting replacement class and walk for children

well of course i would go for all if i could but i had to decide so yeahh

we can never have it all in life right?

now lets be a good girl and start catching up with my studies...

all the fun's over yo! FOR NOW HAHAHHA

fingers crossed for SPM results day on wednesday ppl! i wish us all the best!

live goes on

damn

2011-03-17T17:43:00.002+08:00

now its back to normal.

i hate this.

this is NOT happening!

2011-03-17T17:42:00.000+08:00

but i secretly hope it is!!!!

i just dont want to be too hopeful and disappoint myself in the end :(

IM TALKING ABOUT NATIONAL SERVICEEEE!!!!!

well i aint going anyway but now the thing is i was checking my campsite and all just for fun BUT when i entered my IC number i got this

Semakan Online

Semakan Status Terpilih
No KP anda tidak terdapat dalam senarai yang terpilih.

ITS GOOD IF ITS TRUE SAVES ALL THE TROUBLE!!!

maybe its fake like it happened before but i've double triple checked the same thing came out!!!!

PLEASE TELL ME ITS TRUEEEEEEEE

OMG OMG OMG this proves one thing

MALAYSIA'S SYSTEM SUCKS!!!!! all of em!!!

it's 5.51am

2011-02-27T06:40:00.002+08:00

its funny that i always wake up at such odd hours nowadays!!!!!!

my timing has all gone haywire lol.

anywayyyyyyyyyy, let's talk abt something.....interesting...

except i dunno what to talk abt my mind is totally blank......

:DDDDDDDDDD so cute lol

im having period cramp and it sucks!!! haahah googling abt it right now.

its funny how some women crave for certain food/drinks before menstruation.

sounds like me!! haha i'll always look for food esp chocolate or ice cream in my fridge during PMS but no worries because my fridge always seems to be empty!!!!

but whatever is it i'll just dig up for any food to it eventhough i aint hungry i'll just keep eating like there's no tomorrow!!!!

its such a guilty pleasure especially if u're watching tv(fav tv show like AI GG OR DH) omg i hope the time stops..

ANYWAY, to all guys out there, yeahh period pain feels like dying each time it comes, furthermore we have it before AND during our menstruation so imagine how much it sucks.

approximately thats abt 2 weeks a month lol. means half of a woman's lifetime is spent being a bitch without intending to do so. more than that(eg all the time) means shes a total bitch.

also we have BACKACHE during the time. feels like an old lady :( or i blame it on my stupid pillow lol.

THEN there are many things that we cant do eg drink cold water, take cold bath(even when weather is freaking hot!) errr what else......run exercise laugh cough sneeze....i mean these we can but not advisable unless you wanna have heavyflow everyday

worse still women risk having so many types of cancer due to our boobs and menstruation eg breast cancer and cervical cancer and all that u can think of.

so dont think they just look pretty and sexy and all okay they come with a price!!!!! pain and diseases.

ughh more reason to hate guys. THEY DONT EXPERIENCE ALL THESE AND THEY TREAT WOMEN LIKE SHIT!!!!!

im saying some la dont terasa. in fact guys should treat women nicely and with respect ALL the time. ur mum sis daughter fren gf NO MATTER. or else u'll become a women next life. trust me!!!!

i always feel like perhaps i was a man in my last life, thats why u know....speaking from experience okay!!

hahaha so yeah that's about it. there's something funny which i read from somewhere...

words describing ladies(except this) consists of guys. indirectly telling us guys are more superior than ladies. TOTAL BULLSHIT but im gonna share it here anyway cuz it somehow seems believing.

woMEN, sHE, feMALE, HEr. okayy what else...i rmbr theres quite a few but cant rmbr which..nvm but tell me u didnt fall for it!!!! hahahaha

so now im googling abt WHY DO WE DREAM because i dream quite often and yeahh its pretty interesting to know abt it.

maybe i should study philosophy. i once read abt this philosophy book in my college library and fell in love with it.

okay so maybe not everything you love is good for u(eg ur evil boyfriend whom u love so much but cheats on u AND leaks all ur naked photos or sex tapes on the internet AND accuses the computer repair man) yeahh guys can get away with that excuse nowadays.

so whatever it is, im gonna continue after my cup of warm honey lemon and hot milo my body needs. maybe a bar of chocolate im craving for as well ;)

AND when the sky is bright :))))

when the night has come,

and the land is dark,
and the moon is the only light we'll see,

darling stand by me.

It's never wrong loving, it's the way you love

2011-02-24T20:50:00.002+08:00

so i had a dream abt waking up 5am and coming online to blog.

wth man it really felt like a dream to me!!!!

then i woke up at 9.30am. class at 12pm.

chillax abit, talking to anthony and always failed to end the conversation when its time for me to leave.

anyways, left house at 10.45am, took lrt and arrived bangsar at 11.40am.

screw rapidkl!!!! waited so long only the bus started moving at 12.15pm. totally screwed up man!!!

this is like the 2nd time i kena damn shitty bio class started early sumore at 11.45am when i found out it was already too late T_T

so awkward mannnnnnn went into class at 12.30pm!!!! our lecturer was moody sumore due to our terrible first bio test hahahahha

damnit i really thought ive done well u know suddenly come out OMG what happen!!!! damn sad la cuz overall the whole paper is 46 marks so when u convert it to 100% i dun even wanna talk abt it.

SMTH HAPPENED IN THE BUS THAT PISSED ME OFF BADLY!!!

there were 2 HELP students(since they left the bus with me) who sat opposite each other on a section with 4 seats(2 facing another 2) they sat on the OUTER side okay with two empty seats inside facing the window.

they were so engrossed to talking with each other until the bus got so full and THE SEATS BESIDE EM WERE STILL EMPTY WHEN THERE WERE SO MANY PPL STANDING!!!! if it were me standing i wouldve talked to em. THEY DIDNT EVEN BOTHER TO MOVE!!!!!

come on la ANY KIND HEARTED SOUL would give their seats to elderly ppl or pregnant ladies or OKU(trust me ive done that uncountable times and its NOT even a big deal!)

its the little things that matter most in life right.

THE THING IS those seats were empty and they didnt even offer them to anyone!!! OR AT LEAST HAVE THE COURTESY TO MOVE INSIDE!!!!!!

wahhh i was really pissed lo i kept staring at this girl(u really cant judge a book by its cover cuz i rmbr telling myself she looks sweeet when i first saw her) the guy's also an idiot i almost told them off but there were ppl standing between the way so i gave up

they're either oblivious abt what was happening around them or they chose not to care at all. EITHER WAY ITS WRONG!!!!!

THEY'RE YOUNG KIDS!!! students sumore!!! ppl nowadays are corrupted man really its so sad.

there was another time when an old man WAS STANDING BETWEEN ME AND A YOUNG LADY(who was ironically sitting on a PRIORITY SEAT) so i waited for 10 seconds to see whether this lady will offer him her seat since its priority seating BUT SADLY SHE DID NOT. SHE EVEN PRETENDED NOT TO SEE HIM!!! so i ended up offering him a seat instead even mine wasnt.

u know its such a sweet feeling when u offer ur seat so someone and seeing them smile so gratefully its such a pleasure in life. the smile on their faces is totally priceless.

one thing abt me is that i will NEVER EVER sit on a priority seating zone even if its the only seat left. i'd choose to stand. because someone else might need that seat more than i do.

so please, if u're reading this and u're the type of person who NEVER CARES abt this at all(ive seen MANY), PLEASE START!!!!! please make ur life abit more meaningful aight. be more concerned abt whats going on around u. look around for ppl who need a seat more than u do if ure sitting down.

SPREAD YOUR LOVE AROUND.

THE WORLD REALLY NEEDS MORE.

P/S: of course i've also seen many kind and nice ppl who offered their seats to others and its very heart warming to see em with such kind soul. i really love it when i see there are actually still nice ppl around. but we must know that its never enough. TOO MANY NICE SOUL wont kill, it will make the world a better place. BUT TOO MANY UNKIND SOUL will kill and make the world a worse place.

so remember, do your part and honestly,

you've got nothing to lose.

Confession

2011-02-24T05:47:00.001+08:00

i know its 530 in the morning but i just woke up cuz i peed on my pants while having a weird dream.

anyway i wanna type smth here so that i wont forget abt it in the future

5 YEARS IN SAB LAB and i didnt break any apparatus(not that i can rmbr of)

5 WEEKS IN HELP(few weeks ago) and i already broke a TEST TUBE

thank goodness it was just rm2.70 (fyi we gotta pay for the value of what we broke)

there was this girl who came paying when i was there and she broke a 25ml measuring cylinder abt the size of my test tube.

AND SHE HAD TO PAY RM22++ SHE WAS SO SAD hahahhaha cuz the size is similar but the price isnt.

OH BTW one thermometer(measure temperature if u have no clue) COSTS ABT RM100+!!!!!!!

damn i will never touch it(hopefully wont break it too)

otherwise there goes all my shopping

Sweet dreams

2011-02-23T19:48:00.005+08:00

regarding rumors about SPM results day recently, im not really bothered.

NO DUHHHH of course im lying!!!!!

IM WORRIED LAAAA but not until a point that i cant sleep.

the thing i dreamt abt it!!! haha i know its normal budden.....

ppl always dream abt getting bad results and stuff....

my dream was totally the opposite!

i dreamt of being in school, seeing puan muzrika, reading my name with 9A written next to it.

OF COURSE I WAS PLEASED!!!!

then suddenly i went, WAIT!!! how many subjects i took again?

END OF DREAM.

oh dear this is actually freaking me out even more!

HAHAHHAHA OMG PLS LET IT BE A GOOD OMEN!!!!

so is it 10th, 13th, 23rd, 28th or....? hahaha

Silent thoughts

2011-02-19T11:52:00.000+08:00

I've always secretly wondered how does it feel like.

LOVE MAKES WONDERS.

DAYS WELL SPENT ;)

2011-02-16T23:32:00.002+08:00

well if u were wondering what i did on valentines after my previous post

it was a funny day i must say!

morning went to college parking again was the problem took me abt 1hour(arrived at 11am class at 12) but still NO PARKINGGG after going round and rounddddd

then i went into this lane and in the end the space was too narrow(thx to stupid drivers for double parking at both sides) so i had to reverse

BUT A FEW CARS FOLLOWED MY BACK OMG DIEEEEE (i was the first btw)

so i had to come out of the car and explain to em 1 by 1 there was this idiot who insisted to drive through so we gave him way end up he gave up stupid fella!

then drivers kept coming in n out in n out i was the first so the last to come out after everyone did (not the mention narrow space due to double parking at both sides!!!!)

i tell u help parking is really that scary ok like got war inside ppl pushing around just to enter shuttle bus to another block for a levels or to come back lol

so i ended up parking beside my block paid RM9 FOR JUST 4 HOURS DAMN! damansara is crazyyyyy

here i take the opportunity to sincerely thank my bro who "forgot" to warn me about this before i decided to study in HELP. THANKS ALOT!

went home and celebrate valentines day with my dog john hahahhahaha no la went out for 2 company dinners with parents ok la not bad

karaoke is soooo fun :D

yesterday holiday quarter of relatives and few friends came over to my place just for a brief CNY VISIT :D

hehehehe really had fun!!!! went wangsa walk mall for karaoke 3 hours straight muahahaha!!!!

damn we can sing so well gonna form one rock band :DDD LET'S DO THIS AGAIN SOON AIGHT ;)

i miss high school cuz can see friends everyday and no jam

AND FREE PARKING EVERYDAYYYYY!!!!!!!

gosh i miss those days

but not bad enough to make me feel like going back hehehehehe :P

Happy Singletine's Day!

2011-02-15T01:54:00.006+08:00

AGAIN.

TO ME.

and MOST OF MY FRIENDS.

who are still single and ahem totally available hahahhaha.

at least we're enjoying now yooo!

trust me later when everyone is taken they're so gonna miss the single life!

OR NOT. it depends....hmmm i dont mind

ANYWAYSS

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY to everyoneeeeeee!

we shall celebrate it with our loved ones NOT only bf/gf but also friends and family aight :D

to all sweet couples who are celebrating out there, appreciate whats right in front of u! and just be true to each other. true love really exists okay. as long as u believe :)

ESPECIALLY (hopefully u all dont mind me mentioning ur names here instead be proud yo! :P)
my family - bro kevin & rujin, cousin sis suyun & andrew, cousin bro weishen & belinda, sis michelle & saikei, bro terence & jvymei
seniors - waishen & weijen, yihang & sze teng, sam & cheeweng
friends - ooithong & seeteng, faa & afiq, nigel & michelle

(PLUS all out there whom i forget to mention atm so sorry!)

these amazing ppl have been together since FOREVERRRR, soooo sweet to see them being together through all thick and thin! :D

also thanks for making me believe that TRUE LOVE DOES EXIST. must know that all of you are amazingggggly beautiful together :)

JEALOUS LA :(

lastly to 2 of my buddies(low profile peeps) who just divorced their single life recently, smart move! ur bright future together is ahead!!! we have hopes on u and are really happy for u guys too!!! ;)

HAVE FUN AND ENJOYYY YA'ALL!!!!

LOVE IS IN THE AIRRR LOVE IS EVEYWHEREEEE

i've got so much love to give uuuuuuu

(this post is offiicially one day late but wtv I LIKE LA :P)

i'm still waiting

P/S: to my good friends AHEM & ahem who just got dumped/broke up with their first love, im so sorry but u're still amazing and i love u as much OR EVEN MOREEE!!!! dont be depressed ady k SMILE AND STAY HAPPY cuz thats what matters in life the most :) dont waste ur time thinking too much u so deserve better. someone who broke ur heart is really not worth ur tears & time.

LOVE,

Sabrina Hoong :)

XOXO

Happy CNY!

2011-02-03T23:57:00.001+08:00

TO ALL OF YOU OUT THEREEEEEEE WHO ARE CELEBRATING...

to those who aren't, GET A CHINESE HUBBY/WIFEYYYY

CNY IS FUNNNNN CNY IS LOVEEEEEEE

haahhaha i should just grow up -.-

LOVE,
SABRINA HOONG

it is

2011-01-30T00:31:00.003+08:00

funny how gossip actually makes a person more famous

(gossip girl is a good example)

wait is that even true tho? hahahahha

based on GG, HELL YEAH!!

Life so far

2011-01-25T20:45:00.003+08:00

is just so so :)

i dunno i guess ive been expecting more excitement and stuff after spm(at least more than month! haha)

i REALLY MISS LIFE AFTER SPM

(which happened only for a month, shorter than we hoped)

and now everyone's doing their own thing, eg studying working sleeping lol. mostly working

BUT I MUST SAYYYY

DECEMBER '10 WAS REALLY A BLAST!!!

highlights on bali, prom and NYE!!!!!

its always like this isnt it?

whenever you have TOO MUCH FUN in such a short period of time, the next ordinary days/weeks will feel like crap!

until you get used to it all over again.

then the cycle repeats!

BTW COLLEGE IS OVERRATED.

okay maybe i overrated it myself lol

(i roll my eyes SO OFTEN THAT I DONT EVEN KNOW ITS POSSIBLE!!!!)

but wtv im sure things will come around sooner or later :)

hopefully i will get used to it and enjoy myself? LOL

yeahh maybe i shouldnt always have high hopes on certain things or EVERY thing lol

so that i wouldnt get too disappointed in the end and blame LIFE

but dont we all live on hopes at times? or maybe all the time.

we hope to get excellent results, we hope life rocks, we hope to succeed, hope to dream, hope to live, hope to have fun, hope to marry, hope to laugh, hope to smile, hope to be safe and healthy, hope to.......

okay LETS NOT GET TOO CARRIED AWAY!

my point is, how hopeful can one get? and how much hope is TOO much?

so should we be hopeful or lose hope in life?

nobody has the answer to that.

but too often that ppl had high hopes and find themselves get too disappointed in the end and THEN they lose hope in life.

but then again, if you have no hopes, what are you living for?

hopes are like dreams, you have the desire to make or see them come true.

now lets hope i'd be able to finish my maths, acc, bio and chem homework.......

;)

Mr. Whatshisname the Hypocrite

2011-01-21T18:53:00.007+08:00

is probably the biggest LOSER + HYPOCRITE i know on earth(not that i know many ppl but still)

NO IM NOT SAYING THAT FAT PPL OBESITY REALITY TV SHOW!!!

lol but seriously.

3 years and you're still not over it.

grow up already! AND MOVE ON!!!!!

stop trying to ruin my name just because you couldn't keep me in the past

you're just as ego as hell

no point trying so hard to cover up.

i'd honestly swear to GOD that everything i said was the truth and i've never felt guilty about it. would you? we all know the answer.

everything that you did and said hurt me sososo much. i was upset, and still am. you're so disappointing.

not because i care about you, trust me i really dont give a shit

its just because i cannot believe that i'd let you do this to me. AGAIN.

you dont even have the guts to look me straight in the eyes whenever we talk!!!

NO WONDER!!! NOW I REALLY KNOW WHY. FINALLY I HAVE A PROOF/witness.

ive even convinced myself that you were actually nice and after everything i should just forgive you.

I WAS SO WRONG.

cant believe you're still a total ass who is so good at making other ppl think you're so darn good.

in fact everything inside you is just rotten as shit!!!!!! (i never knew shit was rotten but whatever)

youre so rotten like a ROTTEN CHEESE!!! no the cheese probably worth more than you do, and tastes better too.

INCLUDING YOUR HIDEOUS NUTTY(??!!) FACE WHICH MAKES ME WANNA PUKE EVERYTIME I SEE U

thank goodness my stomach is empty whenever we meet

you, should just shut the hell up from now on.

you've crossed the line. many many times.

stop telling others what i "did", instead you were the one who did all those nasty stuff.

stop accusing me of what YOU did.

or else i really dunno what i'd do. i love pay backs fyi.

i have friends who love me and i love them as much too.

you're just lack of love i suppose you hypocrite.

i dare you to have the guts to bitch in my face you pussy.

and im allowed to bitch about you here cuz ive been keeping quiet for TOO LONG ALREADY!!!!

and ive got no balls so i dont bloody care

wait, where are your balls anyway?

i promise this WILL BE the last post abt you in my life(or my blog at least)

HELP

2011-01-19T14:18:00.000+08:00

My bro said it before and I'm gonna say it once more

HELP PARKING SERIOUSLY NEEDS SOME SERIOUS HELP!!!!

Screw it

Fate

2011-01-17T18:54:00.000+08:00

they say we should leave things for our own fate to decide, but then fate fools us around in the end.

so is our fate on our own hands or should we just let it be?

should we let fate decide our life or should we decide our own fate?

i have no idea.

because it seems like when i depend on my fate, nothing happens at all.

and when i dont, everything goes wrong.

perhaps, the time has yet to come.

but im just afraid that before it comes, smth else might have happened already.

which is why i suspect, fate fools us when we refuse to do anything and just totally leave it to fate.

how does fate actually work?

i have yet to figure it out.

NOT AGAIN!!!

2011-01-16T23:26:00.006+08:00

this is such an important new year resolution i cant believe i actually missed out on this one!!!

NEW YEAR RESOLUTION NO. 9827519 (i lost count trust me its really uncountable)

FINISH READING ALL MY UNREAD NOVELSSSSSSSSS!!!!

gosh i tell u i really have alot, abt 20 maybe??

hahahah i know i suck! but it always gets to me when they're having bookfair or warehouse sales!!!!

there was once(2 years ago) during a popular warehouse sales they sold really cheap books so i got like this PRIVATE series one shot several books and i only read one of em which i bought later cuz i didnt have it. AND TILL NOW I NEVER TOUCHED ANY OF EM!!!!!

omg i know right its a nice chick-lit but im starting to get so sick of chick-lit so im now totally clueless abt what to do with em.

ESP THE SERIES ONES CUZ THEY KEEP PUBLISHING NEW BOOKS OF THE SERIES EVERY FEW MONTHS!!!!

and i have this urge/habit/OCD to get the complete set once i started reading it(doesnt matter how many) i dunno why! i just hate the feeling of smth incomplete or leaving it hanging there halfway!

so its been abit of a problem before but im getting much better.

but whatever is it i really gonna start reading those novels already! its been abt few months since i stopped gahh

good luck to myself!

Resolution 11(b)

2011-01-15T01:05:00.000+08:00

SLEEP EARLY!!!!!!!!!!!

why do i always tend to sleep late??

this is so unhealthy!!!!!

but im so used to it its already a daily habit

gotta gotta gotta change!!!!!

New Year Resolution 2011

2011-01-14T18:24:00.004+08:00

i know its abit, ok very late but better late than never! *winks*

i dont usually have new year resolutions(which explains all lol), never had one, but since this is the beginning of a new decade(hopefully 2012 is not the end of the world!!!!), TADA!!!!

this is my 2011 (RANDOM) NEW YEAR RESOLUTION and here goes nothing!!!

~~1. STRAIGHT A'S FOR SPM (is this counted? since nth can be done anymore LOL)~~

ok scratch that.

1. Do well in A levels.
i really need to start working hard to achieve excellence! seriously. i've never done that in my whole life(work very very hard for smth i want without being forced) so that might explain the lack of stress in my studies lololol. so now i want a scholarship to enter and a good university in uk/nz ;)

2. Be a better person, daughter, friend, sister.
forget abt sister, my bro is not even here! a daughter, HELL YEAHHH. hahahha. not that im a bad person but yeah theres always space for improvement because a person can NEVER be good enough or else ppl will start doing bad things when they think they're already good enough. so yup, i could be better :)

3. Start doing some humanity/charity work.
i've always wanted to do it but never had the chance to. i cant say i dont have the time cuz i even have the time for blogging so why not this! but seriously, I MUST START!!!! like today i happened to pass by sun tzi association but sadly it was closed. hopefully this year will be a good beginning :)

4. Promote WORLD PEACE and GREENERY
i mean make this world a better place :) hopefully can start a recycling plan in my housing area this year and can donate it to the needy as well, TWO IN ONE :D and yeah must ALWAYS GO GREEN! so sad when i see trees being chopped down by a bunch of money making idiots. so i hope u guys can AVOID USING PLASTIC BAGS too and get rid of ur TAPAO habit! just eat on spot! try to use public transport as often as possible instead of driving. (im a pro in greenpeace)

5. Work
wanted to work after SPM but then college started so early. so i might get a part time job if possible. we'll see how things go :)

6. Continue my dancing & language lessons
im very interested in these actually hehe and as i said, i have hidden talent yo! :P might pick up some other languages too

7. Learn any music instrument
had been dying to learn piano since forever but my parents wouldnt buy me a piano cuz they think i'd lose interest soon after i get one(like how once a guy gets a girl he wants and then dump her lol). cant even prove it to em :( for now though, any music instrument will do ;)

8. Be open to new relationships
NOT JUST BOYS duhh, but friends as well. i gotta be more sporting and yeah, just accept what comes in my way instead of hiding or running away like how i used to so lets just leave it to my fate :)

9. TRAVEL
im dying to visit other beautiful countries(malaysia is as beautiful) and explore other cultures. its in my blood :) i really love looking, learning and exploring new things, just enjoy the beauty of life and earth.

10. Find my inner self peace, by doing more YOGA & MEDITATION :D
i do think im already halfway there. like connecting myself with my soul and earth that kind of stuff. u probably wont understand and think im nuts lol. but yeah i enjoy doing yoga and meditating, have fun spending time with myself that kind of stuff. sometimes its the simple things and simple pleasures in life that matter the most. they make u smile :)

11. Decrease my bimboness (although i aint one!)
Spend less time on internet and start widening my view on things happening around the world, read more to increase my knowledge. STOP READING CELEBRITIES GOSSIP!!!!! hahahah btw i just found out that liv tyler is steven tyler's(aerosmith vocalist) daughter!!! and justin bieber dating selena gomez??!! EWWW seriously??? hahaha

okay peeps that's about it.

SINCE ITS YEAR 2011 SO I JUST DECIDED ON 11 RESOLUTIONS :D

actually it was a coincidence but whateverrr

pretty long i know lol.

I LOVE YOU ^^

*edit*
another one!!! make it 11(a) STOP PROCRASTINATING!!! thank you

Shallow minded

2011-01-12T20:38:00.005+08:00

my brother always says that im a shallow person

WELL, AM SO NOT.

not totally la. at times perhaps. it depends. on certain things.

many things in this world are very subjective.

its funny how things work on earth.

i just got back from moral studies in college. my lecturer was really good and funny and she talks alot about philosophy. or life. stuff that we always like to listen to. that wont make us doze off in class.

so now im sort of influenced and am currently feeling very...........philosophical lol

whatever i'll talk about that in another post(which will never ever happen in history when i say that hahahaha)

so in accounting class, there is this bunch of annoying guys from _ _ S WHO ARE SO DAMN SHALLOW!!!!!!!

485349862359341085496752 times worse than me omg!

and they're so freaking rude! to the lecturers. haihhh

this particular high school gave me a bad impression in the past so i was not surprised but then i didnt know they were THIS BAD!

our awesome accounting lecturer MR AWANG from indonesia was talking about racial issues and he mentioned, MUHIBAH.

this bunch of guys immediately asked dumbly and loudly HUH TEACHER?? WHAT IS MUHIBAH???

MAN BIMBOS!!!!!!!!!!!

mind u this is just ONE of the blond moments they had. they're really dumb blondes omg.

SO SHALLOW!! where have they been living? under a rock??!!!

seriously bloody annoying in class!

can fight with _ _ S also lol these 2 particular KL schools are really............terrible

for me anyway

gotta do my math work now(thank god they arent in my other classes)

ciao!

Fun day out

2011-01-09T18:04:00.001+08:00

with zee girls yesterday!

being sick for the whole week(and worse still had to attend college)

i finally had some time to breathe! lol

so we went to klcc for edu fair which seems to be beneficial for those who are still indecisive

thank goodness im already in help studying a levels or else i might not be able to make my decision well

then we went to LEVAIN(seriously awesome bakery restaurant located somewhere beside prince court hospital lol) for our late lunch/early dinner to celebrate our lovely xinhui's 18TH BIRTHDAYYY thereeeee

its such an awesome place to just hang out and catch up with your friends!

again as usual, didnt take much pictures so cant show you guys!

there was one cute waiter hehe so i promised myself to come again :D

CUZ OF THE FOOD DUHH NOT THE WAITER OK LOL

the food were YUMMYYYYY with an affordable price so yeahhh!

nice surrounding too can sit there and talk for hours.

after that went to baoyu's place to just lepak and stuff, first time entering her house after knowing her for 485034863 years! hahaha can you believe that!

but we didnt enter her room cuz she didnt allow us due to its messy condition so we're definitely breaking in during CNY :P

had a great time catching up with my girls and we ought to do this every 2 weeks(saturday night) with the company of delicious food!

anyway ive been alot on fb lately and seeing my juniors statuses and stuff makes me wonder why are kids nowadays being so unhappy with lots of things?

well back then i was unhappy with some things too but i didnt have to say it out loud cuz i didnt think others were interested lol and saying it out would actually make things worse and the sadness would stay there longer.

so i just chose to keep things within myself and hopefully things would be better and guess what THEY ACTUALLY DID.

as long as i dont keep complaining and mentioning all the sad stuff ALL THE TIME you know.

keep the positive energy around you!

so i just wanna say to all my juniors or anyone outside there,

there is more in life than just complaining about your class/classmates/teachers. learn to accept it, live with it and have fun. trust me, i've been in the worst situation and i didnt have any fun at all when i hated it. things became better when i stopped complaining and started enjoying myself.

life is much more beautiful than whats right in front of you now!

you may not see it but you will feel it when you start believing :)

P/S: when i mean the worst, i mean it(when comparing with my friends in school la duh not the world world). but as i said, lets not start mentioning or else i wouldnt know when to stop.

CHEERS!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

2011-01-01T17:58:00.006+08:00

there goes 2010 and here comes 2011.

2010 is over.

but another year is about to begin.

THIS IS SUCH A BITTERSWEET FEELING!

haihh makes me think so much...........

anywayyy, my friends and i had a small group party for new year countdown at my place last night!

we had lotsaaaaa FUN like prom night the other day hehehehehe(will blog about it as soon as we get the pics!)

surprisingly only 1 of us got wasted(again) THIS TIME and he only drank like 3 glasses hahaha as usual.

being with those dudes is really fun, they joke and laugh alot. its a different kind of feeling that is indescribable.

we all definitely had a great timeeee didnt we ;)

well the most important thing is we enjoyed ourselves to the max!

thats all that matters in life :)

too much negative thoughts are unnecessary! :D

we must be optimistic in lifeeee

after so long we stopped hanging out, i kinda miss them so im glad we celebrated our 2010 year end and beginning of 2011 together!

no matter what we're still buddies you know, those kinda feelings cant just fade away like that forever.

hopefully things will improve and be better though.

but we're not even sure when we're gonna meet again!

some going NS, some going to work, some rotting at home, some going college. so so sad.

speaking of which my class starts on monday and i havent even registered yet!

thanks to my stupid school for losing our class trials results im so dead.

ANYWAY just wanna wish all of my friends and family all the best in everything!

2011 has just begun and expect the unexpected!

because life is beautiful

GOODBYEEE 2010.

HELLOOO 2011.

P/S: for those who missed out on our party, too bad for you yo! hahahaha you will never know what happened that night ^^ no pictures/evident at all

I'LL SEE YOU WHEN I SEE U

:)

SAB PROM NIGHT 2010

2010-12-29T11:30:00.000+08:00

HERE WE COMEEEEEE ;)

though i am dateless(hey ppl DID ask me ok haha just that i really have no mood for a date) doesnt mean i wont have fun!!!!

hello its girls time yo!!!

girls just wanna have fu-unnn oh girls just wanna have......ok enough

ermm so yeahh im gonna go do my hair(as cheap as possible) and make up for free at shiseido cuz my mum is a member hehe

then we're gonna overnight @ jw marriott hotel thanks to my beautiful aunt ai ling for getting us a cheap rate ^^

so sad my best friend came last night but its ok im still gonna have fun! ;)

she is a bimbo ughhh

WHAT A GREAT DAY AHEAD TO END THIS YEAR BABY

last time meeting sabians before 2011 college ns or whatever starts for each of us with different plans.

HERE WE GO :D

Unwritten rules

2010-12-25T22:30:00.004+08:00

this is so kindergarten but whatever ive been wanting to say this for a loooooong time already

when a guy likes a girl, TRUST ME, a girl WILL FIND OUT EVENTUALLY even if u dont say a word!

we have SIXTH SENSE remember? no im serious -.-

a girl is smart enough to act dumb to remain the friendship between them both so she pretends that she has no idea

BUT a guy is dumb enough to act smart and think that the girl is clueless so he keeps wondering whether she feels the same

TELL U WHAT

if a girl likes u, she WILL MAKE SURE THAT U KNOW. IN ANY POSSIBLE WAY.

if she DOESNT like u, she will just continue acting dumb/clueless/oblivious. and you, well, should stop guessing around.

but whatever is it, TRUST ME, if you like a girl(and spend alot of time with her), SHE WILL FEEL IT.

omg i feel so high school haahahhaha just for fun la ciao!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!

Chiooo

2010-12-25T22:25:00.001+08:00

ive always wanted(and been trying) to write super chio type of posts and all u know

like touching or gives u a chill at ur backbone.

FAILED!!!!

cuz i always stopped halfway hahahahah

SERIOUSLY I HAVE SO MANY DRAFTS!!!!!

ok i shall continue writing em

but no inspiration ady haihhh im such a failure always procrastinate

ANYWAYYY PEEPS

MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAVE A HAPPY NEW YEAR(in case i couldnt wish in time)

this one is from me.

people must learn to give and take, or at least try to appreciate. not just keep complaining and taking from the ones who are dumb enough to keep giving endlessly. this is your life, not others'.

BACK FROM BALI (home sweet home)

2010-12-23T17:39:00.000+08:00

TIME FLIESSSSSSSS :(

sososo sad.

i wanna blog about our 4 days in bali but im afraid i couldnt make it hahahah

sadly we didnt take much pictures but its alright!

WE HAD FUN!!!!!

though it was raining

WE STILL ENJOYED OURSELVES

it was sad(and miserable) coming back to kl

one good thing is i miss my home my maid(??) and my family! :D

cant wait to go to klang!!! cant wait to celebrate christmas!!!!! :)

HELP COLLEGE 2011 HERE I COME ;)

(had a rough time driving to and back from that college -.-)

OFF TO BALI

2010-12-23T17:36:00.001+08:00

(3 DAYS AGO)

19th December 2010

hahahaha this is just for fun

A levels?

2010-12-15T01:17:00.001+08:00

hmmm, any advice?

which college/intake/course/wtv

oh no..

i hate making decisions.

as usual.

LOL

PEEKABOO!

2010-12-11T22:49:00.000+08:00

muahahaha we're in penang now!!!

was walking around in FIRST AVENUE MALL(pretty new) when it started raining

and we didnt realise that

had to walk all the way back to hotel!

we were all drenched!!!!!! hahaha exactly like pangkor case 2nd version lol

food was just alright today went to the hawker stalls in front of SUNWAY HOTEL

crowded la but not so anymore after the rain lol

some food were overpriced but what to do everyone just wants to earn a living

our curry laksa kinda sucked...and o jian was like -.- speechless

ANY NICE YUMMY PLACE TO RECOMMEND?

:D

Off to Penang!

2010-12-11T01:17:00.000+08:00

for 3 days with my girls :)

and parents hhahahaha potong steam lol.

now they're sleeping dreamily and im still here!

well whats new hahaha

xinhui decided to come last minute(she has chinese paper on 14th!!!!)

so we're gonna make this trip worth it :D

and shes so gonna score that paper!

we had a good laugh tonight ;)

xoxo

I'm home :)

2010-12-08T17:49:00.000+08:00

FINALLY ITS OVERRRRRRRR!!!

i know theres more to come in life but let me enjoy this moment as much as i want to :D

so now im home to pack all my stuff, tidy up my room, discover some dust, yeahh and so on ;)

fingers crossed that i'll get my desired results :)

ive really done my best so lets look forward!

have fun peeps!

SPM will be over

2010-12-08T00:06:00.002+08:00

in 14 hours!!!!

GOODBYE SPM, GOODBYE SAB.

:')

gahhh

2010-12-05T16:24:00.002+08:00

im so not used to studying

T_T

don't know why

2010-12-05T14:05:00.001+08:00

i just couldn't stop :)

twinkle, twinkle little star

2010-12-05T13:38:00.002+08:00

he makes it sound like an old classic song!!!!

like ELVIS PRESLEY!!!!!

omg i wanna marry an ABC(KEVIN OH!!!!).

i dont mind if he has the same name as my bro

yes im shallow but whatever who cares hahahha ;)

as long as he can sing to me every night muahahahaha

why does EVERY ABC seem to sing so goooooooood? eg jason & joseph[dont listen to them much though they're good but i prefer kevin oh's deep sexy voiceee which suits old classic songs the best ;)]

this is crazyyyyy

dream a little dream of me ;)

2010-12-05T13:36:00.002+08:00

KEVIN OH.

OH I WANNA MARRY YOU ;)

NS

2010-12-02T21:49:00.001+08:00

seriously, why is this happening to me T_T

initially i didnt mind going to NS ONLY IF i got 1st batch & sabah/sarawak budden the only bad thing is we will have to lapor diri even before new year's so no more PROM AND NEW YEAR'S EVE.

so i was sort of in a dilemma.

AND NOW U'RE TELLING ME THAT LAPOR DIRI IS ON 2ND OF JAN AND I DIDNT GET FIRST BATCH????!!!

seriously i feel like killing someone.

i've heard so many 1st batch ppl who got sarawak :( so envious.

oh well, IM NOT GOING ANYWAY SINCE ITS NOT SARAWAK/1ST BATCH.

END OF STORY.

CATATAN

TAHNIAH. ANDA DITEMPATKAN DI KUMPULAN 2 ATAU 3. MAKLUMAT PENEMPATAN AKAN DIMAKLUMKAN KELAK

i hate you.

DECEMBER :)

2010-12-01T17:57:00.006+08:00

END OF SPM.

PENANG TRIP.

BALI TRIP.

PROM.

PARTIES.

OUTINGS.

NEW YEAR'S EVE.

CHRISTMAS.

NATIONAL SERVICE(ughhh).

WHAT IS THERE NOT TO LOVE ABOUT DECEMBER'10?

CANT WAIT!!!!!!!

and for now, physics time. im just gonna study anwar's notes. i trust u teacher. hahaha

GOOD LUCK FOR THE REMAINING SUBJECTS!

JUST 3 MORE TO GO CAN U BELIEVE IT??!!

i'm believing ;)

SPM

2010-11-09T00:32:00.004+08:00

-blog closed temporary to due unavoidable reason-

UNDER CONSTRUCTION.

not really.

SEE YA AFTER SPM!!! WHEN ITS ALL OVER!!! (I HOPE)

CANT WAIT.

:DDD

most probably 8th of dec.

oh no too busy having fun that day :)

maybe a week later!

ciao peeps! ;)

the last call. last sprint. last minute preparation. whatever you call it. im up to it.

A day in Klang :)

2010-11-05T23:19:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AH YEE!!!!

i love you so much! stay awesomely cool!!! just keep being yourself :D

nice to meet all my lovely cousins again. sis back from sg for the weekend. too bad bro not here

well hope they're doing fine all the time :)

most importantly everyone stays healthy and happy.

especially my ahkong and ahma whom i love the most.

hmmm i suddenly tot of buying them smth but no idea what.

smth useful and for remembrance :D

so anyway celebrate my aunty's bd today.

WHOLE DAY WEH!

from dimsum to bukit tinggi klang(supposed to be sunway T_T) then dinner @ somewhere around LOL

it always feels awesome spending time with family.

TOMORROW MAYBE MEETING THEM AGAIN IN MID VALLEY AFTER TUITION!

but im still considering laaaa...

no need to study ke :(

haihhhhhhh

P/S: I DROVE TO KLANG YOO HEHE :D

Happy Graduation & Halloween!

2010-10-31T00:00:00.000+08:00

;)

IT WAS A BLAST!!!!!

both our halloween party and graduation day!

couldn't be more happier than this(for now lol)

TODAY IS DEFINITELY A DAY TO BE REMEMBERED!

lalalala im so happy and sleepy

nights peeps!

P/S: happy halloween! beware of anything spooky :D

im so gonna miss all of this! :(

Witch, anyone?

2010-10-28T00:05:00.001+08:00

i hope i wont be overdressed!

OR HIDEOUS!

i really dun wanna scare the kids :S

hahahaha have fun sabby!

One more thing

2010-10-27T19:20:00.002+08:00

that Anwar said about SPM....

we want it to end SO BADLY

yet we NEVER want THE DAY to arrive.

BECAUSE OF FEAR!!!!!!

(unprepared actually hahahahha)

P/S: 28 days to ago. its like exactly one MENSTRUAL CYCLE. which means if i have it today, the next time i have it it'll be the 1ST DAY of SPM!!! oh dear....

Stop hoping

2010-10-25T00:15:00.003+08:00

for something that will never happen.

because it's useless.

and pointless.

and killing.

please, just stop.

i know how it feels like. it might seem impossible (to stop).

but once you stop trying(to stop), you lose it all.

keep fighting.

im almost there.

to being hopeless.

im losing hope.

and for once in life, that is actually a good thing.

rare huh?

stop hoping for something that will never happen.

sometimes we all just gotta let go and move on.

because thats the only thing we could do.
its LIFE.

Anwar said...

2010-10-24T00:17:00.001+08:00

(martin physics teacher)

many things that made sense today.

though every class makes lotsa sense duh cuz its physics!

but yeah maybe cuz hes younger(??) thats why he sort of understands how we feel.

he said in early of the year we all damn malas to study cuz spm seemed so far away.

around june/july mmg started studying cuz spm seemed around the corner.....

and NOW, when there's just ONE MONTH left..

we'd all be so lazy and feel so discouraged cuz SPM IS TOO NEAR.

and the feeling during early of the year comes back again...

IT IS SO TRUE!

now i feel so malas ady i really dunno what to do

:(

i just keep looking for the right college to enter(but cant seem to apply for scholarship cuz i kinda suck in searching)

looking forward to bali trip with my girls.

PROM.

NS (damn)

COLLEGE.

basically LIFE AFTER SPM.

god i sound so desperate.

please tell me you're with me in this ;)

Frankly speaking

2010-10-22T13:45:00.006+08:00

i think im officially the WORST driver on earth!

seriously.

oh dear someone please invent rubber cars.

OR LET'S ALL RIDE HORSES TOGETHER!!!!! :DDD

like back in those days.

its certainly not as scary and nerve wrecking as driving

:(

P/S: sorry aidid. you're such a nice guy. its all my fault really.

everyone's being so nice to me which makes me feel so bloody guilty :(

When shit happens in life...

2010-10-21T20:14:00.000+08:00

you either run away to avoid it(shit)...

or just face it and eat the shit...

LOL

metaphor k metaphor :D

what a RAINY morning

2010-10-18T09:43:00.001+08:00

i almost died(CHOI)

AGAIN.

for so many times until i lost count.

dear god i really love my life pls stop trying to take it away from me.

stupid proton.

damn heavy rain. halfway wiper suddenly not working(*!@$^%!@*!!!)

stopped at mcd for 1.5 hour to avoid danger, rain & traffic jam.

made my move. road seemed super smooth. went up bridge. on bridge, CONGESTED with cars.

infront jam all the way(mrr2). was driving 50-60km/h(just left mcd 1 minute ago =.=)

tried to break from 50m away. brake like stupid dog shit. road damn slippery. 10m away from the stationery car infront this stupid proton still hadnt stopped.

i died for 10 seconds there.

had no choice but to bang divider on my right(better than hitting the car i will mentally die on spot ok).

stopped to calm myself(yes right on the road!) for 15 minutes.

no difference cuz there was an accident right infront of me(they were unlucky) so i tumpang park je behind them they were busy arguing they couldnt even be bothered

another worse accident further in front i assume, cuz ambulance passed by. damn scary.

what a fking morning. i mean freaking.

i gave up. went back home.

i admit i have to learn from my mistake.

im so gonna drive 20km/h from now onwards during rainy days.

or maybe 10. to be safe

what a weekend

2010-10-17T23:24:00.001+08:00

exhausted.

we always want what we cant have

2010-10-17T00:54:00.003+08:00

sadly there are also people who always have what they dont want.

what can we do about it?

its humans nature.

but as long as im still alive,

im gonna try no matter what.

:)

and hopefully in the end i will get what i want.

Halloween Partyyyy!

2010-10-14T17:54:00.000+08:00

in kemensah heights!

interested? ;)

its gonna be my first!

it sounds really fun and exciting!

organised by the belgium kids living one house away from me

named gaetan and maxime!

really cute kids :D

sosososo adorable! can fight with russell hahahahaha

gimme a ring if u wanna show up! trust me it'd be fun!

we could all dress up and stuff.

plus i need help for decorationsssss!

hopefully my babes could join us :)

kemensah heights rocks all your socks! ;D

A good read

2010-10-14T17:50:00.002+08:00

The Hunger Games definitely is!

its been such a loooooong time since i felt so tensed with all the suspense building up on me when im reading a novel

its as though i could feel the scene, imagine being in it

god im a good reader! hahahaha

and i love good reads! :D

Forgive but not forget

2010-10-08T19:10:00.002+08:00

this is life.

Well said.

2010-10-07T19:22:00.006+08:00

"The problem with people who only want what they can't have is that once they have what they wanted, they don't want it anymore."

school sucks today.

i cant believe i just said it was fun yesterday.

see how much things can change in one day?

high school drama never ends.

grow up, LITTLE KIDS!

such pathetic guys.

i mean boys.

im still alive!

2010-10-06T23:43:00.004+08:00

last weekend might be the worst weekend ever!

sat tuition @ martin, pudu. took wrong train, 1.5 hours of 1 way journey lol.

took me 3 hours to go and come back grrr.

almost bang a car this rude malay dude came out and scolded me.

wasn't in the mood so i didnt argue just apologised was too tired.

then car with siren =.= lol lame shit.

sunday had fun movies day with girls @ pavilion.

just the later part that i hate.

going to faa's house for rumah buka raya.

left pav at 7 supposed to arrive 15 mins later end up arriving at 830 =.=

got lost. bloody scary. went all the way to maju express(KLIA/cyberjaya) no u turn AT ALL.

the next exit was bukit jalil zzzzz

panicked and almost killed someone, bang a car, and get killed by a bus LOL

thats all. lets not go further

did i mention?

2010-10-06T22:12:00.006+08:00

that we're having so much more fun in these 2 months in these 2 YEARS??!!

hahaha things are always like that.

they tend to become better when you've already had the worst.

we've got not much time left and thats really sad.

why let me enjoy school SO MUCH when high school's gonna be over in a MONTH?

its gonna be a history. something you can change no more.

i feel like im form 1 again, or form 3 again before and after taking our pmr.

being so carefree, so relax instead of stress. (esp when we're in block E this week)

i remember 1 week b4 pmr we'd sit around in a circle, playing cards, playing games, some dudes playing firecrackers, talking, laughing, exactly as though pmr's over.

then we were still doing the same thing after pmr hehehe.

and NOW many ppl are playing around again, B4 SPM!! this is crazy!

finally in 2 years, i have the chance to say that SCHOOL IS FUN.

was afraid that i couldn't.

i gotta admit i haven't had such fun times and loud laughs for such a long time ady, i dun even remember.

b4 this useless principal came i think, making our school such a nerdy place, so lifeless.

and our batch is always the one to cause trouble, the special one.

hahaha i cant be any more grateful than that :D

our batch rocks all your socks!

i so love SAB'10 :)

as simple as ABC

2010-10-05T17:19:00.005+08:00

yesterday is the past,

today is the present,

tomorrow is the future.

i know right damn random.

just suddenly occurred to me when i was thinking about life.

:)

in high school....

2010-10-05T15:51:00.000+08:00

you either screw some people up...

or get screwed by others...

OR,

BOTH.

Dilemma

2010-10-04T18:31:00.001+08:00

im in dilemma.

a very, very bad dilemma.

:(

Screwed up.

2010-10-04T17:12:00.010+08:00

ive screwed up so, so, so many things in the past.

with all those empty promises.

looking back at what ive done.

i was a terribly bad girl.

no wonder so many ppl hated me, but i dont blame them.

i really dunno what was wrong with me back then.

i was a young(raw??), confused, lost little girl.

i was newly introduced to the world and i wanted to try so many things at once.

plus i had family and friends issues of my own to handle.

i just couldn't keep up.

so i shut myself out from everyone else.

locked my heart in somewhere safe so that nobody could enter and break it again.

the scars from another past hurt me too much and i was afraid, afraid of those unhealed wounds.

well these are the excuses ive been using to comfort myself for years.

i was just so screwed up la. so reckless.

treated ppl close to me like shit. taking advantage of em.

later i met someone i really liked, but because of all these shit, things didnt work out.

right guy wrong time.

it was a very very tough and dark year.

eventually, i screwed up most of the things and end up having nothing at all.

that was seriously a wake up call.

the following year, i tried to open my heart again but things weren't so easy as they seemed.

i was taking things too fast, rushing like nobody's business.

not caring about whoever is it or whatever happens next, cuz i just wanted to get out of those dark days.

and i thought it was the right time. turned out it wasn't.

wrong time again. i was still not ready.

then end up hurting someone else, someone innocent.

at that moment it might seem like no big deal, like im the one being hurt.

then i realised, its not always just about me, me ME.

there are two ppl involved in a relationship.

there are other people in the world. they having feelings too.

but i was sad after that cuz ive been misunderstood big time. (KARMA ALERT)

he didnt help me though i asked for his help. served me right cuz i was so mean to him.

still, i felt really bad.

i slowly recovered, mostly because of my oh so freaking awesome friends!

they really helped me through alot, made me feel so much better.

though we had some problems later, but we solved it together because we really wanted this friendship to last.

we appreciate and care for each other so much, we'll always be together, our bond growing stronger every year.

5 years and still going strong. (ON and OFF for the first few years though hehehe like couple only)

anyway back to topic.

after that i was really to fall again, but this time, right time wrong guy.

he seemed as though he didn't care. so in order to know, i purposely(and regretting) broke things off.

if he cared enough he would've said smth right? but he didn't so i assumed......yeahh

1 month later he was with another girl. ass. i mean karma. hahahah!

i mean seriously guys, ARE WE THAT COMPLICATED??

just show us, prove to us that u care!! so that we NEVER have to do such complicated stuff ok!

even if we do, if u like us enough, u WILL say smth to stop us from leaving right no matter what.

U WILL SAVE UR RELATIONSHIP. if theres a will, theres a way.

tell u a secret but only applies if the girl likes u enough

"dont leave" is ALL u gotta say to stop her from leaving. seriously its just that easy.

but u guys seemed to misunderstand us. thinking we want more, want smth else.

so u just keep quiet, watching us leave :(

anyway back to the present.

now my past is like flooding back to me. i havent been feeling things for more than a year now.

i didn't deserve them actually. after what ive done.

and i dont wanna repeat my past mistakes.

but my situation now is seriously killing me.

im STILL afraid. obviously in dilemma.

what if things turn out wrong again? what if they didnt work? what if i'd hurt someone once more?

the worst is what if history repeats itself?

thats the last thing that should ever happen but u know when u allow some space for acceptance, it might.

but if we dont risk it, we will never know because we never let anyone in.

so what should i do?

btw guys, if u think girls try to make u fall for them but end up being a bitch breaking things off or leaving u hanging there(happens all the time huh?), they might have their own reasons. theres always two sides of the story(in MOST cases). maybe they're afraid, they feel insecure and all sorts of stuff like that. they dare not open their hearts to others, not wanting it to seem so fragile. they dont let anyone in. so when things get serious, they just cut it off so that things wouldn't go any further, to avoid hurting themselves and a deeper wound on u. sometimes, most of u just keep quiet and walk away, feeling all hurt and sad and fooled, hating girls, thinking we're all the same - bitches(we do think like that of u guys too). but if u care enough, u just gotta convince them that everything will be alright. seriously. u just gotta try HARDER.

ok now i admit girls ARE complicated. damnit. BUT U COULD ALWAYS MAKE US SIMPLE.

:)

P/S: happy birthday anthony! i've always missed u :)

where is the love?

2010-10-04T00:45:00.003+08:00

many of us have been looking for love at all the wrong places.

maybe all these while, its been just right in front of us.

but we might never know.

unless something or someone slaps us right in the face.

HARD.

Once upon a time

2010-10-03T00:03:00.001+08:00

have you ever had that kind of sad feeling, when you see someone who used to be so close to you but not anymore?

thinking of what could have been, what should have been?

we were all once so, so close together.

and now we all seem so far apart.

so distant from each other.

its like whenever we look at each other, we smile like how strangers always do.

we end up being like strangers.

how did this happen?

did time pull us apart?

did arrangement set us apart?

did resentment keep us apart?

or was it just our fate and destiny.

proving that our destiny is over, that this is our fate.

something that we have no control of?

or was it all just a lie? an excuse?

for all of us, not doing what we could have done, not trying our very best, to keep us together.

till we fall apart, just like that.

like a glass, so valuable but fragile.

because thats the only way we could accept the fact that everything fell apart.

all the lies and excuses we've been telling ourselves.

just to make ourselves feel better.

but you know what?

we never do.

so close yet so far.

one of the things...

2010-10-02T23:20:00.005+08:00

that would slip away from me after high school...

is being part of pbsm girl squad team

i was watching back our marching performance in fb(MUST WATCH ONCE IN A WHILE)

it suddenly came to me that i would NEVER experience a marching competition anymore(oh pls dun talk abt ns)

that took us months of preparing, practicing under hot glaring sun

you know the feeling during the competition day?

the cheering that you try VERY HARD to ignore?

that fire in you???

that spirit in you???

that determination of you, wanting to show everyone the best in us?

hoping that our effort will pay off?

that moment when you forget about every single thing, and just do our best?

that 3 months of hard work felt like 3 seconds to us once its over?

i have done this for FOUR years.

F-O-U-R YEARS.

3 months every year. so that means 12 months(A YEAR!!!) of marching under the hot damn sun!

i love the feeling but not the freckles i got after that grrr...

i will never be part of it anymore. never get to show others what ive got to offer.

i will never sing sambehrei and clap tepuk grrr with 30 other members anymore.

those 4 years were totally different experiences.

form 2 was the shy timid me, being new girl and all, surrounded by amazing members mostly seniors. it made me wanna continue in form 3, screw pmr lol.

form 3 was the fun me, being together with more girls of my own form, having tough punishments(which i partly applied on my squad this year hehe), crazy formations, awesome commander. having fun and enjoying every single moment. cried my heart out when the results were announced. i just couldnt believe it.

form 4 was the rebellious year. after 2 doing years doing and being the best but not getting our efforts paid off, was kinda tired of that. so spirit kinda off. being the seniors and looking at our juniors were different. but in the end, everything came back and things seemed clearer. cried my lungs out this time.

form 5. do i need to say more?

how i wish i had done more...

how i wish i had said more...

how i wish i had thought more...

maybe things would be different.

maybe my girls wouldn't need to feel how i felt for these past years.

because it was awfully terrible.

but i guess i hadn't done enough to change that.

im sorry.

and now my only hope is to see you girls win in the coming years.

my one and only hope left.

i will miss this.

AND DONT TELL ME U WONT!

anyone who has been on this squad will never forget about these.

cuz its smth worth remembering our whole life.

something to be really, really proud of.

:)

Happy Octoberryyy peeps!

2010-10-01T13:49:00.003+08:00

canNOT believe its already october!

we'd be graduating high school in a month, and also taking spm in 52 days!!!!

THIS IS INSANEEEEEE!!!

hehehe some of you must feel really old! (college or uni dudes)

HEHEHE

LIFE AWAITS US BABEH! :D

P/S: just bought my awesomyyy radio last night in jj! the one with remote controller hahaha ppl getting lazier huh nowdays. thx mummyyy :D

Funny day in school

2010-10-01T00:24:00.001+08:00

seriouslyyy

with ishaq and ronald and cheong as the usual jokers around!!

too bad theena was absent

bm class was hilarious!! as usual ishaq making fun of himself(peribahasa today), ron being sound/ignored/despised by the teacher in a funny way, cheong being himself lol and yeahh teacher pms as usual LOL

why do we always love our class the most, when the year is about to come to an end

worse still, when spm is around the corner, when high school is coming to an end

everything in school suddenly just seems, so much more fun.

and the two hours i spent in maths class today(latih tubi with other classes) was probably one of the funniest moments i had in class(when teacher is around) since school reopened.

when guys + guys(ron and zw) come together, gosh they just get u laughing all the way!!!!

(without realising themselves hahaha)

and also its so nice to have my babes together all the time and laugh around loudly like nobody's business!

seriously i've been laughing my stomach out for the past week!

dang these are the moments that i'd definitely miss(maybe the ONLY thing, hopefully not though) after high school graduation

plus my class has all these funny pics i gotta show ya'll!

hmm what else?? faa open hse coming but shes not feeling well.

hopefully she'll get well soon :)

SPM ANOTHER 52 MORE DAYS!

NOT EVEN 1 WEEK FOR EACH SUBJECT!

ohnoooooo babyy

black sheep, white rats

2010-09-28T23:48:00.008+08:00

it is not our price to pay

for all of the mistakes that you have done

but everything is too late now

you can never undo the past

nor can i ever forget it

no matter how much i try to

no matter how much i want to

its just never gonna happen

let's just say, people always forgive but never forget

how could we?

there are so many scars around to remind us of the reason they existed

if only we could run away and never, ever look back.

Ops i did it again

2010-09-28T20:11:00.000+08:00

yesss, my cbox is gone again!

FOR GOOD.

its just so annoying as if i leave it there just to let unknowns/computers spam

oh well it just seems empty now..

gotta find something else to fill in

Tied together with a smile

2010-09-26T00:32:00.005+08:00

- by Taylor Swift

i guess it's true that love was all you wanted

cuz you're giving it away like it's extra change

hoping it will end up in his pocket

but he leaves you out like a penny in the rain

oh cuz it's not his price to pay, it's not his price to pay

hold on, baby you're losing it

the water's high, you're jumping into it and letting go

and no one knows

you cry, but you don't tell anyone

that you might not be the golden one

and you're tied together with a smile

but you're coming undone

now i finally know how it feels like, when one of your family members and someone close to you hate each other.

i could easily turn my life into a series of drama(with never ending seasons) and be my own director.

i'd earn gazillions cuz everyone loves interesting dramas based on dramatic true life stories.

no joke here lol

Just a dream

2010-09-22T18:44:00.004+08:00

one of the saddest songs i've ever heard! (MUST CLICK IF U READ THIS I DUN CARE!!!)
get ur tissues ready and be prepared to cry! (esp if u're feminine lol)
pls listen deeply into the song and lyrics.
enjoy peeps! ;)

JUST ONE CLICK BELOW!!!!

heartfelt?

go grab ur tissues already!

lyrics here if u're lazy to search(i know u are hehe)

It was two weeks after the day she turned 18
all dressed in white, going to the church that night
She had his box of letters in the passenger seat,
six pence in her shoe
something borrowed something blue
and when the church doors opened up wide

she put her veil down trying to hide the tears

oh she just couldn’t believe it
she heard the trumpets from the military band

and the flowers fell out of her hands

Baby, why'd you leave me, why'd you have to go
I was counting on forever, now I'll never know
I cant even breathe
It's like I'm, looking from a distance,

standing in the background
Everybody's saying, he's not coming home now,
This can't be happening to me
This is just a dream

The preacher man said let us bow our heads and pray
lord please lift his soul and heal this hurt
then the congregation all stood up and sang
the saddest song that she ever heard
then they handed her a folded up flag
and she held on to all she had left of him
oh and what could’ve been
and then guns rang one last shot
and it felt like a bullet in her heart

okay u can stop crying now :')

i always love songs with stories...

"God has no religion"

2010-09-21T18:06:00.007+08:00

- Mahatma Ghandi

neither do i nor should i.

this is my belief.

my thoughts and beliefs are different in my own way.

nobody can ever change my faith on everything i believe in.

:)

people like me(i finally found out that i was never alone after all after searching the internet)

are probably Deist (Deism)

and i also believe in the teachings of Buddhism.

Buddhism is not a religion.

to know that Buddhism has no God or higher power.

to believe that Buddhism only means to believe in achieving inner peace with yourself.

to realise that Buddhism does not name God but believes in "Universal Mind'.

i know im complicated but its fine as long as i know myself the best.

so i hope people respect me as a human being who has the rights and freedom to choose my own faith

thank you very much.

Don't judge a book by its cover

2010-09-20T16:06:00.001+08:00

dont judge me by how i look, what i say, what i do, what i have

you have no idea about everything that i dont.

you dont know me.

but come to think about it, who does?

i dont blame you. after all we're just humans.

sometimes im also attracted to books or novels with pretty covers.

but we wont know how good or bad is it until we're done reading everything.

THEN, we judge once more.

so, even if we judge others based on their first impression, its alright. everyone does that.

just make sure we judge AGAIN after truly knowing them.

or else, just get rid of that first impression. it shouldn't stay forever. its not fair for them.

give everyone a second chance.

well there's one exception though.

bitches will always be themselves(bitchy). they're not worth another chance.

HEHEHE :P

its not what i didn't feel, it's what i didn't say

If there's one thing

2010-09-19T23:11:00.001+08:00

that ALL OF US HAVE EQUALLY, no matter who you are, where you are from, rich or poor, girl or guy.

despite how everyone is different from each other.

the one and only thing that all human being has, although with different limits, is,

TIME.

it's the only thing fair in this world.

because we are the ones who can control our own time.

we decide how to spend our time, we plan what to do with it.

u get what i mean here?

ITS OURS!!! something that we all have.

yet we dont realise how much time we're wasting.

just because its always there, doesn't mean that it will be, doesn't mean that its unlimited.

cuz humans, as usual, take everything that they already have for granted, without the fear that they might lose it.

until they truly lose it, it'd be too late by then.

YOUR TIME IS UP.

P/S: if you're confused, here are some variables to assist you.

manipulating: how we spend our time
responding: joy and happiness in life
constant: health, family and friends

Flip flops

2010-09-18T20:30:00.000+08:00

ARE MY FAVOURITES U HAVE NO IDEA!!!!

last few months Roxy had like several sales...

AND I GOT 3 PAIRS OF FLIP FLOPS FROM ROXY!!! (ALL DIFF TIMES)

hahahah i know i also feel like killing myself

but each pair was less than rm30!!!!

the 1st one i got was RM29, 2nd was RM28, 3rd was rm27!!!!! HAHAHA SO FUNNY RIGHT

they're SUPER CUTE AND THEY HAVE MY SIZE!!!

HOW CAN I NOT BUY???

ok i aint buying anymore for the next 3 years (we shall see)

hmmm i think ripcurls flip flops quite pretty too hehehhe

Is it true

2010-09-18T03:39:00.000+08:00

that good things will always come to an end...

yeahh i guess so

like how time flies faster when you're having fun

slower when your life sucks

2010-09-16T03:10:00.000+08:00

Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option.
- Kelly Angard

2010-09-15T23:23:00.001+08:00

Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars?

I could really use a wish right now.

Oddly funny

2010-09-15T19:22:00.001+08:00

we just found 3 kittens in our storeroom!!!!!!(in our house!!!!)

damn funny lo we dun even know how long they have been there!

they peed everywhere so smellyyy

no wonder there was a cat(im assuming its the mother) in front of our house last night, refuses to go away

BUT HOW DID THEY ENTER MY HOUSE AT THE FIRST PLACE?? [sumore the storeroom door is always closed]

we're talking about 3 kittens here!!! (impossible they were born there cuz no blood and all)

i suppose we will never know

Weird dreams

2010-09-14T19:20:00.000+08:00

you know what, i dream almost EVERY NIGHT.

and most of my dreams are really really weird.

they got worse after watching inception =.=

the night i watched inception, omg, i had a really relevant dream!

in my dream i was being chased by 2 weirdos and it was sooooo scary i was damn nervous, scared of being caught then when i was hiding somewhere they were coming closer i had nowhere to run and suddenly it occurred to me that this was JUST A DREAM ITS NOT REAL as long as i get a shock i will wake up, so i told myself to WAKE UP and then my eyes opened immediately.

i could still feel my heartbeat beating vigorously, damn spooky okay.

then i went back to sleep. hahahaha!!

another one was surrea(memang pun)l!!

i was on stage replacing kelly clarkson, pretending to be her cuz it was HER concert but suddenly she didnt show up. so i had to sing like her so that the audience doesnt know that i was her replacement. not so sure abt my look/face though(the audience couldn't tell the difference and they tot i were her), i just went up and sing. sang ALREADY GONE, one song of hers ONLY(sucks cuz the audience got impatient, live band dunno gone where, only got minus one so nth much to sing) and then rasa sayang =.=

okayy there are more but i couldnt recall(usually i rmbr them very clearly when i wake up but after few days not anymore, TOO MANY DREAMS TO RMBR!!

told ya im little miss dreamer! :P